To deny your hearts sweetest pleasures
To ignore the hurt and pain from denial of such pleasures
To act as if all is alright and no harm is being done
Is to kill your precious heart ever so softly

 

To deny his physical needs
To ignore his physical desires
Just because of your materialistic needs
Is selfish on your part
For he clearly needs you more...
Than your own materialistic desires

 

To tease him till he can no longer stand it
To tempt him when he is in such a weak state
As much as you find it fun and pleasureable
Cause you know he is aching for your body
And so much more

Than to deny him the sweetest pleasures
Is beyond evil
As the sweet temptations you tease him with...
May feel like a slow painful death to him

 

But you have your reasons
For why you are the way you are
And why you do things like that
For you love the moment when
You two can finally spend some
Quality time together
To get very intimate

The long waiting is now over for him
As well as you
Now you two can finally
Make sweet passionate love

Well it has been two months since I last been online due to my computer dying on me. Yah the ole bugger finally conked out on me...thanx to my dumb ass cousin who originally rebuilt it as it was originally a Gateway pc which I got back in 2000 which didnt really last long (my fault...*LOL* no not funny). Only lasted a couple of years and BOOM! It died on me (actually the power supply had gone on me). This time when my old computer died it was really I think and still blame my cousin as I personally believe that ole fat ass used some old used damaged parts when he originally rebuilt that computer PLUS (this is my fault here) the cooling fans died a few months back and I was using a desktop fan on it instead of replacing the old cooling fans (which died on me a few months ago).  So, shit caught up to me and I was without a PC for two months. Mainly because I had to buy a new computer (the one am using right now) and I had to pay it off before I actually got it. So, I busted my ass at work for the past two months to make sure it happened. Gotta admitt I thought I was goin to be in worst shape cause I didn't have my computer but I actually wasnt....I looked at it like a two month vacation from the net. Truth be told prior to my old computer dying on me I was seriously considering leaving the net cause no one was on and I was kinda or so I thought loosing interest in the net...it just wasn't the same for me anymore.  But I guess what I really needed was a long ass break from the net as even though I wasn't missing it that much I did some thinking and come to realize I do miss one thing...doing sites and fan sites. Low and behold my bestfriend from Urugway contacted me to tell me that she too was missing doing sites and fan sites...and how she wanted to get back into it again. Which had motivated me to join her in the same quest in getting back into sites and fan sites. Through emails to her and reading her thoughts and feelings on gettin back into the game of site development and all that goes with it...I found myself seriously missing out on my old life as a site owner and webmistress. So, she and I made plans to get together to do sites and fan sites like what we use to do. Not so long ago (a few years ago).

 

My bedroom is also undergoin a serious make over as you can see in my galleries on here, you can see some pictures of some of the changes I made to my room (i.e. new mattress, new bedding, and a trunk).  I got a new nightstand as well but for some reason the picture didnt want to upload.  I also have pictures of my new pc which isn't so good cause the case is black but you can see the blue lights from the blue cooling fans lights (that lights up when powered on). Plus I have a gallery for screen caps of Windows Vista Ultimate (which is what I got) and how cool it is. For those of you who own it, than you know just how awesome it is and for those who don't own it...you should check it out as it is totally awesome. I also strongly recommend getting it as it is (to me) the best window's version out there!!! I am also planning on getting a 17" flat panel monitor which is even bigger and save more space than my bulky 15" monitor that I currently have now and am also goin to add another hard drive that is 160 GB (more space the better) plus I wanna get a TV Adapter so that I can watch television as well as record shows and interviews (for fan sites purposes only) on my computer. 

 

I am so glad to be back online, yah I guess I did miss the online life after all...*LOL* Am also working on a Personal Blog Site, I will keep this blog goin as usual but my main blog will be located on my personal blog site.  Anyways, that is it for now. I am goin to start writing again but this time not poetry like the last time. This time am goin to focus on short stories and creative writings. Am goin to be the next Anne Rice *LOL* BIG ASS *LOL* Welll, hell! A girl can dream can't she???? *LMAO* Anyways, catch you all later!